Never Say Never

So if there is one thing I have learned in my 32 years is "Never Say Never".

Ten years ago my friend Heather wanted to introduce me to her friend Brian because he thought I was cute. I said, "Nope. Not interested in dating anyone right now." Yeah. We all know how that ended.

Six years ago, Brian's employer told him he would have to relocate soon. He said sure, but he would not move to Albuquerque. Yeah. Where did we spend the last 5 years?

While living in Albuquerque our Tucson friends and family would ask when we'd be moving back. "Not anytime soon, if ever.", we'd say. Oh yeah... that one came true, too.

When I found out we were moving back I said I wasn't going to work. I was going to stay home, run Get A Grip for Brian, volunteer at Jaxon's preschool, have playdates with friends. What's that? Ami & Mary twisted my arm to going back to teach kindergarten with them! (It took a lot of twisiting :) )

And a month and a half ago I wrote this blog (Maybe Baby? Maybe Not). Going on and on about how we weren't going to have any more kids. One was enough for us. Well, God had other plans.

Oh yes, people, I hope you are all ready. There will be another Pearson gracing our presence soon! There was nobody more shocked than Brian and me.

The fourth member of our family is due to arrive on January 8, 2012. I'm 12 weeks along. It's been an emotional roller coaster, to say the least.

Not having planned it, actually, having had a mind set of no more kids, will throw you for a loop when it does happen. I thought we were free of diapers, bottles, baby food, strollers, diaper bags, teething, colic and all of the other "fun" stuff that comes with a baby. plus I felt terrible that there are couples who try so hard for a baby and it just doesn't happen for them and here I am, not necessarily asking for another one with a baby on the way. Needless to say, it took a few weeks for us to get excited. Plus the thought of months of sleepless nights, was not at all exciting.

Then, we had our first ultrasound, at 8 weeks. The doctor saw something on the ultrasound that made us VERY nervous. My experience with doctors making "noises" has not been good. She said she wanted me to have another ultrasound in a few weeks to take a closer look at what this thing could be. As you can imagine, I was a worried. You don't want something to be wrong with the baby you are just getting to know. So, Brian & I had to guard our hearts (yes, I realize I sound a bit like Kasey from Ali's season of The Bachelorette). We needed to prepare ourselves for the worst. Hope for the best, expect the worst. Maybe not the best attitude to have, but it's what we did.

As those 4 weeks moved on, and my belly started growing, (Oh yes, it's became round and big quickly) Brian and I got a bit more excited. Thinking about Jaxon as a big brother made us happy. We think it is going to be great for Jaxon, in a lot of ways (he needs to learn that life doesn't revolve around him). Then, I started looking back at past blog posts, and our picture albums. Seeing Jaxon's chubby little face, his milestones, his excitement made me thrilled to be able to experience all of those firsts again. And sure enough, we have fallen in love.

See that belly! It's getting hard to hide.

Thankfully, things have turned out for the best, so far. We had the second ultra sound last week and the baby looks absolutely perfect! I am so in love with this precious little thing. We could see his/her fingers, nose, mouth, ears, spine. So amazing. Her/his heartbeat seems so strong. The doctor said everything looks good and is on track.

Honestly, how cute is this new little Pearson going to be?


The top yellow word says "head" the middle one says "belly" and the bottom one is "spine"

Jaxon seems totally ready for a new baby. When I told him I had a baby in my belly he said, "What kind is it? Is your belly going to get big like Mary's?" And that was it. He seems to want a little sister and keeps calling the baby a girl. He does want to name her "Dorie", so that'll be interesting if it is a girl. He's even ready to give his crib to the baby so that he can have a big boy bed.

So now we wait a couple more months to find out if we'll be buying pink or handing down blue.