Thursday, May 5, 2011

Maybe Baby? Maybe Not.

It's only day 5 and I am already running out of things to post! Yikes! So after much thought, I stole a post idea from Ami (are we surprised really? ) The other day she wrote about having, or not having, more kids. I get this question A LOT!! Are you having more kids? Jaxon needs a little brother or sister. When's baby #2 coming? Don't you want to try to have a little girl? I'm not going to lie, I get annoyed. I mean, that's kind of a personal question. What if I couldn't have anymore kids? Or what if I've been trying and failed? I know people mean well...

Anyway, I'm not opposed to the idea of having one more, but you see I would have wanted to do it when Jaxon was younger... 12 months, 18 months, maybe even 24 months. But I couldn't. The doctors specifically and adamently told me I could not get pregnant until January 2011. This is due to the radiactive treatment I had due to the thyroid cancer. I guess a baby with 3 heads is never a good idea. So the idea and desire was put on hold.

Well, as that date got closer, I started thinking... maybe.

But then I kept thinking and maybe not.

I would love for Jaxon to have a playmate and someone to complain about his crazy mom and demanding dad to. Someone to support him if, God forbid, something happen to one of the both of us. How unfair is it to Jax to have to be on his own while cleaning out our house after we have passed, or to have to decide whether to pull the plug or not. I know, I am morbid, but I've had the thoughts.

It would be easier for me to tell Jaxon, "Go play with your brother while I make dinner." Instead of feeling guilty that he's playing by himself.

He is such a good little boy, he would make a caring, sweet brother.

I loved being pregnant. I also was a cute pregnant lady :)

But then I think, Jaxon is 3 (in 3 days... sniff, sniff). He would be 3 1/2 + by the time a baby was born. I wanted my kids closer in age.

We sleep through the night.

It is so much easier to go places now... no bottles, strollers, diapers, pacifiers

We love to travel and it's just more cost effective to buy 3 airline tickets as opposed to 4.

when it comes times for extra curricular activities, going to 1 is much more feasible than 2.

Jaxon was such an easy baby, a good sleeper, a good eater, it would surely be jinxing it to have another one.

Plus, there is no law that says we need to have one more baby. If we lived in China we would be perfect!

And the list goes on... for both arguments.

I know a lot of you will shake your heads and say all kinds of things about how a big family is wonderful and I am sure it is. But I love my little family. And if we were meant to have another one then it'll happen, somehow, those swimmers have to be determined!

And is are the questions going to stop once I have 2? Then it'll be are you going to have 3??


Adam and Samantha said...

Well, let me tell you, the questions will NEVER stop. We had three kids in about THREE years and people ask us all the time, when the next one is coming, um are they crazy?? Not sayin' were done, just not for a while. Anyways, you do what is best for YOUR family. But I do have to say, watching Ethan, Malia, and Ava play together melts my heart almost every time I see them together, it's just plain awesome =)

Brooke said...

Oh my Gosh, Anabelle!! Ha HA! I read Ami's post (yes, I'm a blog stalker and her posts are hilarious, so I confess...) but anyway, I was reading and thinking to myself "when is Anabelle going to write about this" b/c I was SO sure that people have been harping on you about it!! Yes, the questions never end and I've actually debated addressing this very question on my own blog. Not sure if I will or not. MAYBE!!!

Ami said...

WHATEVER! It's decided. (Well, I decided.) You must have another one, actually two. Didn't we discuss twin girls for my boys to marry since we already have Jax and Hunter married off? It's only the right thing to do. In closing, (yes, this is an official paragraph) you were a damn cute pregnant lady! :) But you know I'll love your family no matter many of you there are! :)

Jaymee said...

Only you and Brian know what is best for your family and how MANY in that family there should be. But (yes but) I will say this, your family will always "feel" perfect with how ever many you choose to have. And there are always the list of questions and concerns as there was with the first, but IF it does happen he/ she will fit in just fine, be loved as much as Jax, and make the family just the more perfect unit that it is. And IF another little soul does not find it's way into the Pearson family, then yes, 3 is a WONDERFUL number. oxox